I have an emotional dependence on music

Last week I received an email from Spotify saying that the owner (my aunt) of the Premium Family Plan had not paid for the plan and that in a while I would no longer have Spotify Premium, but I didn't care because I thought she would pay, until the day before yesterday I was listening to sdnd and I heard the voice of the devil:"rs... migo qual é o nome daquela musica que a gente não para de cantar?"(ad from spotify brazil)... that's when I wanted to kill myself.

It's been exactly two days since I last listened to music and I'm feeling the side effects, it almost seems like my life has no meaning anymore, I haven't gone near my AirPods since then and it felt like they lived in my ears!!!.·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

With that I realized that music is my life and that I can do without everything, except Spotify Premium and my headphones, MUSIC IS LIFE<3