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What to upload and what to not upload.
What to talk about and what to keep private..
Seeing content, and people, speaking, it makes me wonder how public I should be. Why is it something that I want to do but I am torn at at the same time? I mean, the concept of being slightly public is nice but the thing in itself is horrible.
I can't imagine how people are actually able to be public, to put their lives and struggles out there for anyone who catches it to see, how is it that someone can consciously talk about something they feel deeply about knowing that it's also going to be public? I know that it's for sharing experiences, but I guess that I am personally too rooted in fear social judgement and rejection. Getting ignored... I mean, what is even the problem about if I know that, like 1 or 2 persons are going to see this in the end? At the times I've tried getting public I think I notice I'm not interesting enough to be picked out by others
I'd rather not deal with the hustle of trying to share myself publicly but I think that trying to be public sounds nice too. blogging or making videos, if you intent it to have an audience it can quickly become meaningless if you don't get picked up by the algorithm. Does it get to the point that the people who make their lives public are judged for it?
My mind rests in the preference of being scared to start
What?
Am I wrong for saying what I say or do I even make sense??
I don't know what I'm talking about, or what I actually want to do. I feel so weird, I'd rather keep thinking instead
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Jegg
ya i get what u mean
I feel like its easier to be more honest and pour ur heart out online though and some people just have really suppressed emotions that theyre waiting to vent out and stuff
For me it also depends on the platform?? On instagram im definitely more cautious of what i post and i keep my captions short and simple, maybe 1 or 2 stories at a time, etc. I also sometimes vlog but I also keep them simple and digestible. Spacehey is like. where things just pour out in paragraphs. It really feels like a personal journal except its somehow public but also not rlly?? like my irl friends would not find me here unless I tell them :p
I was more conscious of the things I say online before, but tbh I think I loosened up a bit as I grew up since I realized Im a big time yapper T_T like I talk a lot irl too and its always about whatever's on my mind, and I think that side of me also causes me to be more "public" online
for me its about impulse most of the times!! and sometimes I feel like I overshared so I delete a bulletin or blog 3 minutes after posting it.....lol.......I personally think its super liberating to be more public!! i also feel more connections to ppl who overshare on the internet but it also dependsssss technicallyyy sometimes I get second hand embarrassment of what some ppl post but also who really gaf ig!
Like honestly... I think what's holding me back is that impulse of being able to actually do it because my barrier in that is so strong I'll always have double thoughts whenever I want to post online
Even if it's something as silly as a drawing... but the fear has been leaving me little by little so I don't know. I act on impulse for some things so maybe I should do it for this too because like you said it feels liberating (that's the word I was searching for) Like honestly other platforms don't exist to me, SpaceHey is the best online site I've ever seen since like....... all the time I guess
Honestly I should try, though my issue is that I don't really want to let out what I think because I think it'll be shameful BUT I am feeling more familiar towards posting and being able to be fine with it because in the end it is something very freeing and it's also cool to just have a register of what you have said on the internet over time lol
I'll attempt... because I also delete things out of embarrassment like 3 seconds later.. I'm just really afraid because there IS people that say too much and I fear that I might get to that oversharing point where it's no good so YEAH
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Jegg
ya i get what u mean
I feel like its easier to be more honest and pour ur heart out online though and some people just have really suppressed emotions that theyre waiting to vent out and stuff
For me it also depends on the platform?? On instagram im definitely more cautious of what i post and i keep my captions short and simple, maybe 1 or 2 stories at a time, etc. I also sometimes vlog but I also keep them simple and digestible. Spacehey is like. where things just pour out in paragraphs. It really feels like a personal journal except its somehow public but also not rlly?? like my irl friends would not find me here unless I tell them :p
I was more conscious of the things I say online before, but tbh I think I loosened up a bit as I grew up since I realized Im a big time yapper T_T like I talk a lot irl too and its always about whatever's on my mind, and I think that side of me also causes me to be more "public" online
for me its about impulse most of the times!! and sometimes I feel like I overshared so I delete a bulletin or blog 3 minutes after posting it.....lol.......I personally think its super liberating to be more public!! i also feel more connections to ppl who overshare on the internet but it also dependsssss technicallyyy sometimes I get second hand embarrassment of what some ppl post but also who really gaf ig!