Last Christmas, December 17th 2023

I'm going to be so kind that it makes the people that hate me SICK. I want to be so understanding and unreactive that nothing anyone can say will offend me. I know people are awful and they say and do awful things, but I hate them so much it comes full circle and I love them. It means a  lot to be understood despite your cruelty. My emotions vary. I can hate to the death and want someone tortured and killed, and I can cry and feel affection despite being wronged. This only applies to women, anyways, I can forgive you for what you have done. I'm happy you moved on and finally have friends and a life, you deserve support and that consistency you lacked for so long. But I will not tolerate lies at least, you will never find someone who treated you like I had. You can use people and throw them away, bully others down and treat people like shit, but you will never be any more beautiful, nor will that make anyone love you. You'll never see this but I have finally moved on and the year 2025 marks that for me. I will not apologize anymore, because you haven't done that once. I just hope you know that even though it was all a lie, I understood and valued you in my life, it was an experience I have learned from. Don't take advantage of people that love and trusted you, you'll only hurt yourself.