I'm stressed tf out..

I wish I had a good relationship with my Mother.

…but she's a raging narcissist that would love nothing more than to see me six feet under, and all for being Queer/Bisexual and Trans.

( I also refuse to follow her racist bullshit.. )

It really does such, because before things got really bad and I learned the truth about who she was a person, I thought we had a good relationship. ...but it was just next level gas-lighting and subtle emotional abuse. I'm tired. 

There's so much going on for me mentally and emotionally and it's a real trick to regulate myself. But I am trying, because I need to break cycles and find my own path. 

It makes me want to yank my hair our and scream. This uncomfortable feeling...I know I have to push through in order to move on. 

This has to happen. I cannot stay stagnant anymore..