Human contact eww-

I'm so weird I want friends but I'm so introverted that the second I say anything to anyone I overthink it and shy away, like why haven't they sent me anything do they not want to be friends anymore type stuff. 

Also, I know I'm out of the slang loop talking to another teen is like decoding some ancient language, I yearn for the simpler times- when me sitting playing with dolls useing my imagination was expected and normal.