12/16/2024

I have this friend of mine, shes kinda all I have right now. I've had a rough couple of weeks. her birthday is coming up. my friend grew up in theater, I found this out recently. She loves the Broadway production wicked. hearing my friend talk about her love for theater makes my heart warm. I went to New York and saw a Broadway show with my evil grandmothers a few weeks ago.lets just say somehow they found a way to ruin that too. I liked the show we saw. I guess I've let them cloud enough what should've been pleasant memories for me. For my friends birthday I got her a glinda candle and me an elphaba one. my friend played glinda in her theater groups production. shes so undeniably glinda lol. my candle is on my bedside. this soothes me when I'm having a hard time. the scent reminds me of something I know. when I light my candle I feel like me and my girl r staring at the same moons. of course we're doing that too lol. I spent a good chunk of my day with my friend. we went to go eat, she got a drink. she loves the show sex and the city. my evil grandmother also loves the show. I remember sitting in her bed growing up watching it with her. I love that now I can associate the memories with my friend. today wasn't great. this week has been okay, but I'm glad I have her always. I've been in a terrible state of paranoia recently.i feel like everyone hates me and is always judging me. I have to work on this. the voices make it hard.