Tired of being tired

I absolutely hate school, so so so much. I was never excited for college cause I knew id feel this way, and here we are, this feeling is now here and it's lingering into my Christmas break. 

I just want to graduate already, but I have so long until I can, I at least want to get to my actual major that I care about instead of the classes I take now that mean nothing to me. I feel like a waste of a student, a waste of a person too. Who knows if this will even mean anything in the long run. I don't. Im just scared I suppose.

I think I'm going to fail everything, even though I try so hard....

Is there any way I can feel better about this? or is there a solution to my unmotivated brain?