updates

Life has been really disturbing. 

Honestly, I have no direction anymore. I don't know what I'm going to do. 

I don't even know if I'm going to study next year. Not because I don't want to, but the person who should care about me don't care enough to look for a school to put me in. 

I'm worried. I can't imagine me not studying. 

the thoughts in my mind become more worrying. I wonder if I'm okay.  

I think I need help.  

as soon as possible 

My family keeps fighting. I don't know what Christmas will be like.  

I was invited to a birthday party, but I don't know if I want to go.  

I don't want to socialize, I don't feel good enough to talk, I don't want to look anyone in the face 

but I can't just not go, it would be disrespectful. 

and I don't want to be disrespectful to my friends.  

they help me sometimes. few, but they help 

I hope life gets better.