Hell(p my grades) // 12-13-24

School is getting irritating & being queer & (possibly) neurodivergent in school just feels so alienating. I feel cut off & nervous over everything I do. I constantly feel different from those around me, even the openly homosexual or “weird” friends I have just don’t feel the same way I do sometimes.

Having opinions feels weird, having things I like feels weird, being Emo feels cringe, almost every thing just makes me want to blink and not care anymore. Or just blink and cease to exist. Whatever’s easier. Existing as a teenager is just hard & trifling. I really DO feel like my family don’t understand, but the thing is they probably do, they’ve just forgotten that anger,  that disdain, that comes with being a teen. The mistreatment, the belittlement, the stress, it all feels forgotten because they apparently “have it worse” now. Cause I’m apparently “too young” to feel the same way they did or do.