let’s talk abt school [and how it stresses me tf out]

i don’t think anyone genuinely, whole heartedly likes or liked school. it’s a pretty normal thing to hate, no matter what age you are. so i don’t think my struggles here are completely unheard of. but like… damn, sitting in the same chair for an hour and a half while listening to a lecture and not having the attention span to take notes is uhm. not fun. 

but as if that wasn’t bad enough, i’m currently sitting at my desk for the third time this week, being on my phone instead for finishing my work. and my deadlines are rapidly approaching. i’m fucked :D 

i used to be the “gifted kid”. and i know everyone says that nowadays, but i think i somewhat fit into that title bc i was in honors and AP classes since the second grade. at the time, it was easier to get shit done and actually learn. but now that i have an internet addiction and never learned to try bc adults in my life automatically assumed i already knew??? yea it kinda fucked me up. i was never smart. i just knew how to put effort into shit. ig i don’t anymore, bc getting abused and constantly exploited in my early teens makes it kinda hard to focus on other stuff, yk????

i feel so bad for my professors. they did literally nothing to deserve such a horrible student lmao <3