rambling, volume nine <3

im not gonna bother making this all drawn out. guess what? they haven’t talked to me! and at this point, i don’t think they ever will!!! this is hell i just wanna get over my fp already bc they’re never gonna care abt me. i doubt they feel the same way i do abt them. they probably hate my guts. i wouldn’t blame them. i’ll do anything. i’ll do fucking anything. JUST TALK TI ME GODDAMIT. PLEASE. please. can we at least be friends it doesn’t even have to be romantic. just. fucking talk to me. 

i’ve tried to interact with them bad i have really bad social anxiety hence why that didn’t work very well. i should just plan something? ig?? like for example being something gravity falls related to a lecture since we both have a special interest in gravity falls. can you tell i’m absolutely terrible at this. yup. it hurts so much why can’t i just be normal and NOT obsess over a poor innocent person to an unhealthy degree. i feel like a monster. IF THEY DONT FUCKING TALK TO BE TOMORROW IM ACTUALLY GONNA KMS. it’s not fair it’s not fair it’s not fair it’s not fair i hate this