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tl;dr: i face down existential misery by acknowledging the nature of thought, namely the tendency to use human-invented descriptions ("size," "significance") to evaluate ourselves.
[edit] note: knowing intellectually that things are a certain way or that it's impossible to know something does not invalidate such feelings. we are human. this comes with baggage. there is no reason to be hyper-rational about things... although sometimes i do love doing exactly that.
hello,
i could spend the rest of my life focusing on being a musician and i would not be done with my music goals.
i will never be "done."
this immensity of things to do or accomplish is easier for me to accept when i acknowledge that "completion" is just a concept we invented to compartmentalize large things into smaller processes. in the universe there is no inherent completion of anything because all things are constantly moving in a cascade which has no known beginning or end. it's just easier to do stuff if you can feel like you are completing things. in the end (and in the moment) all that matters is that i try my hardest and enjoy it.
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the world is so fucking huge.
and so fucking old. humanity is just a blip in time. and yet i am another short blip, not even a phrase or uttered breath, when compared to humanity. i am here and in under 100 years i am not here. what's the point?
being finite against nigh-infinity kinda sucks. part of the ToS of being human: to acknowledge things much greater than yourself. but size is only relative. any one person's life experiences, consciousness, and thoughts are so incredibly complex that it adds its own layer of infinity to the universe. sure, history is massive, but being alive, being wet concrete, being able to both mold and be molded - that is colossal.
to me, comparing oneself to the universe is impossible. it just realistically doesn't work because these are all qualitative things, not really quantifiable. i may feel small and unimportant, but to what standard? small and large are not inherent to the world (neither are "important" and "irrelevant"), these are descriptions we made up to wrap our head around things. to categorize them. there is no scale on which we could put consciousness and the totality of history/circumstance.
many of us did not necessarily read and sign a ToS for being born. we are just brought into existence and have to cope with the world. my advice: know what we have invented ("completion", "size," "morality," etc.). our thoughts and perceptions are rooted in the bias of such inventions... it gets super abstract without them, which is hard to work with... but it helps for dealing with the existential pit which is being a miserable fcking human in this world.
thanks for reading the bullshit i come up with
- francis t.
12/10/24
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Jegg
"completion is just a concept we invented to compartmentalize large things into smaller processes." This part was super eye-opening.
The size of infinity can feel scary sometimes, but I think "finity" can be scary too. I remember watching those youtube videos about how the sun will explode in like a million years or something and basically all of life on earth would die afterwards. I don't know which one is more scarier though. The universe infinitely expanding to the depths that humanity would never reach or humanity just going extinct at some point. It's kinda funny to think about because I feel like when I think of infinity I feel so minisculely small, but when I think of putting an end to humanity I feel this sense of limitation.
When I think about how our sense of anything is some kind of human innovation, I feel so baseless, and that's probably natural because we're all taught that the human rationale is the "true" world. But tbh!! I think for me I realized at some point that fighting these kinds of existential crises is not too bad because humans are not just built upon being rational. We're also animalistic and emotional, which for once I am thankful for because I can feel much better about something after a good nap, meal, or hangout with friends :) The world is so complicated but there is simplicity that is built into us that we can trust
what you said about humans not just being rational totally makes sense
i will be editing my blog to include that thought
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Haru_min˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
As it is, I considered that everything just doesn't exist. Outside on the universe we know most of the things we created as humans don't exist even in a physical form, I came to the conclusion that the universe doesn't have a meaning, anything that's surrounding us but us humans doesn't have a meaning. We were the ones that decided to create that and everything we know as it is on this planet.
All those concepts, goals, dreams, achievements. I realized long ago just how small and minuscule we are compared to everything surrounding us, but I just felt like it was something normal. It doesn't even have to be 'meant' to be that way, it just is because it exists. We currently do not know or probably will ever know the origin of this existence, it's like it never ended and never started, it's just happening (but i feel like that's really complex to explain so i'm not being precise here) and something i learned into the human experience: sometimes it's better to not search a 'reason' for why everything is like it is, maybe it just is for no reason at all.
All of those things are concepts we created and based on, our thoughts, words, classifications and all. But since we have created those things, i guess that it's only natural to act in what has been constructed, but this has given me a huge new perspective on all things, everything is just invented, and in the grand scheme of things it doesn't affect the universe that we know. So nothing really haves a point or explanation, but still humans in their world constructed their own. I feel a little more relaxed knowing that, i think that saying of 'we are the universe experiencing itself' kind of makes some sort of sense. Because, ironically, none of it truly makes sense, we're just beings on a specific time with specific situations and conditions met to be existing and feeling, and then there's no point for existing, because it just happened as it is, and our lives are as short as they came to exist. The 'significance' we have only exists because we created it ourselves.
But in this world we live we can only let go of some concepts, because humans have to adhere to some form of rules. Or at least that's how it's been, I think.
Dorian
i like the infinity of it all personally. I will never be done with things just means there is so much I can look forward to. the meaningless nature of life means you can live it however you please with no consequence. The importance i have to the universe is irrelevant, a star doesn't exist with reason or purpose even if it exists for millions of years. in that way, the biggest planet in the known universe is just as irrelevant as me. humans give eachother purpose and reasons to keep living, i like that much better than the idea of the universe deciding it all
Dorian
i like the infinity of it all personally. I will never be done with things just means there is so much I can look forward to. the meaningless nature of life means you can live it however you please with no consequence. The importance i have to the universe is irrelevant, a star doesn't exist with reason or purpose even if it exists for millions of years. in that way, the biggest planet in the known universe is just as irrelevant as me. humans give eachother purpose and reasons to keep living, i like that much better than the idea of the universe deciding it all
"the meaningless nature of life means you can live it however you please with no consequence."
insightful news thank you dawg
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