December 9th, 2024, Monday

Writing this at 9:02 pm

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This day started off badly, my mom tried to get me out of bed but I first fell asleep at 4 am last night, so I was too tired to get up. Ofc that frustrated my mom and she was very dissapointed in me :(

I was allowed to stay at home, but they expect me to go to school tomorrow. Why can't they see that i'm not fit for school, my brain doesn't work anymore.

Woke up at 10 am and was very hungry, today was a complete binge day. I shove my feeling down with food.

Anyway at 12 I decided to go for a walk, where I listened mainly to Billy Idol. Went on another walk at 3 pm, where I listened mainly to The Sundays.

Spent the rest of my day bored and anxious.

One day i'll be normal, but why does it have to take so long?

I'm losing hope.