i dont want to do this work

god i just dont want to do it im sitting here crying about it right now because not only have i procrastinated it until now but i just still dont even wanna do it 

i have always loved english and i have gotten amazing grades all throughout highschool (even in ap classes) but now that im in college i fucking hate this so much 

this professor actually makes me want to die ive never done so horribly in an english class and it isnt because i dont follow her directions its because she doesnt give any good ones!! 

i guess ill give another update when im done i just made some french fries (what ive been living off of for the past few days while i prepare for these stupid finals) and im finally sitting down to do the work that i only have a few hours to do before my boyfriend comes home from work and we get to do something fun 

i really wanted to get this work done quickly and then decorate for christmas or clean or something or prepare for my monthly reset day but you know what i have absolutely sucked today. ive procrastinated, been sad, and just cried all morning and its fine ill cry now but when i get my degree you best believe im going to be hooting and hollering in joy 

wish me luck guys i dont even want to submit this blog because i know when i hit enter ill have to go do things 

i dont want to even submit assignments in this stupid class anymore because i know no matter how hard i try, no matter how perfect it is, she will always find something to critique and ill never get a 100. its hard for me as someone who always does perfectly to meet someone that has such high expectations that nothing can be perfect. i love you guys for listening and i dont expect anyone to read this far but... okay im gonna press enter now. wish me luck for real ill be back later to update you!