illness

I've been ill since like Wednesday. On Thursday I only just made it to my tutorial and then immediately drove home and went back to bed, and yesterday I literally just stayed in bed all day long. I feel slightly better today, I'm hoping to go to Lidl at some point. I need butter and lemons and I might get Christmas cards at Tesco's. I would get them from somewhere more dignified but I'm ill and it's cold and rainy outside so I don't wanna go into town. 

What I really hate about being ill is how its literally just a depression simulator. Like I've not left the house since Thursday morning. I've barely left my bed for these past few days. I want to get a few things done today so I'm not just rotting away, but everything seems like so much effort :( 

I need to get started on my Spanish formative and do my Lidl shop. That's pretty much it. I could do a Frida Kahlo and make art whilst I'm sick... I keep looking at my card players painting... I want to finish it.. but am I in the right state of mind to paint right now? I still get a bit of a headache when I move my head :(

Why did I have to get ill literally a week before going home? Could my immune system not have held out for these last few days? I could be sick at home with my mum taking care of me right now, instead of worrying about whether or not I'm gonna make it to the cocktail night tomorrow ughghghgh I really don't want to go whilst I'm ill. 

quick edit - if you ever have a sore throat, gargle salt water. please. I tried it the other night because after dozing off I woke up at 2am and it hurt to swallow. out of desperation I gargled a whole mug of salt water and my throat stopped hurting almost immediately. Bacteria are so fucking silly. how are u gonna colonise my body when I can just kill u with a bit of salt?? fucking loser. 

Also garlic. If u feel an illness coming on eat raw garlic. hurts like heck but if you time it right you can fully prevent a cold with it. But don't overdo it because last year I ate a clove of garlic every night for like 10 days and I started getting a tummy aches :(

Bacteria are silly but so are pharmaceutical companies. I'm trying to strengthen my immune system by not taking antibiotics. I don't want to rely on drugs. I also want to be able to go to Hadrian's wall without feeling disabled a week later. I'm pretty sure the reason I get ill so easily is because my mum just fed me antibiotics anytime I so much as coughed for the first 17 years of my life. When I confronted her about it I realised she has literally no idea how antibiotics work, like, none. 

For context, (if you care) she tried to prove me wrong by saying that when she was little, she had a seasonal allergy that was misdiagnosed as an illness for a few years in a row, so every time her allergic symptoms came up, the doctor gave her antibiotics; she was like "how come THAT didn't weaken my immune system then?? I was on antibiotics for weeks at a time!" 

I don't need to explain why that's silly.

It's honestly quite shocking how nobody seems to have ever explained it to her though, like, that's kind of important knowledge...