Life is crap

Sick of it all. Lately has just gone to absolute trash. Wish I had someone to come home to and be squeezed by before going to bed being held and being told nice things :/ Idk how long I'm gonna go at this point. Friend group split because the last game holding us together became so trash that none of us could do it and have fun anymore, and never barely made any irl other than one because I was always too shy which ended up turning into social anxiety on a really bad scale to now where I cant function barely anymore in multiple ways, and the one has moved on with life while I feel like idk what to even do. House is also messed up from a tree hitting it and no money because the past few years got really rough where I'm at from various factors. I havent even really began to do anything yet because didnt have a good foundation support to start with from parents fighting as soon as they met basically and never really got along and both lost what houses they had cause dad ruined her credit. Gaming been the only thing ive crutched on to pass time and feel "happy" but now barely anything is good to me anymore thanks to laziness and greed and only ones I liked the others didnt and games alone sucks to do for me because i just end up getting too mad from stuff that wouldnt happen if i had just 1 other person. Theres more too but ive already overshared so I think ill stop here and if you want to talk about it then ig just message me. Idk what to do anymore I'm just so fed up with everything..