Life update

It's not getting any better. It's constant circles and ending up in the same place.

Nobody i know cares to know if I'm okay or not even when I'm showing signs of not being okay.

I'm so tired of trying, I'm tired of living up to unrealistic expectations. Isolation is good but it can get to be too much. I want friends again, I want to have what jobs I want, I want to not be such a fucking mess up. I just want someone to fucking care, to fucking ask if I'm okay or not. This life isn't for me genuinely it's constant agony.