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I didn't start doing work until like 30 minutes ago but I don't feel that bad because it's because I took a nap and looked at go stuff
Not doomscrolling does wonders even if u still dont do work!!!!!
stanford essays due on thursday...idk if i can make it...maybe i could? idk it doesnt sound too bad tbh!!!
i want to live life with more energy and inspiration
this is kind of cringe but watching hikaru no go makes me sooo like...ergggrgr...like it makes me want to live my life better...uhgjhg i want to have more faith in stuff and just put more honest effort into things...I realize small bits of honest effort are the most difficult to initate but also the most important sources of motivation
I'm still really bad at go...i was saur happy when i beat a newcomer (20k) ai bot but i realized its bc its rlly stupid ermmmmmmmmmm i started playing against a beginner bot (17k) and have been losing all my matches....i think im learning though aaaugh....i want to get better
and I really want to enjoy my classes and give it some more effort and actually study for tests and try to focus more as corny as that may sound ggyghh...and by that i mainly mean like watching videos w solutions all the way and actually paying attention...i forgot how to study ever since usabo and scioly happened..brrggrrhrgrgrr..........................................................................................i have to lock in but i always say that......i actually have to lock in fr though like I have to be serious I want to be serious with life because all the rotting has made my physcial body rot away and it feels like my soul just flew out of the rot shell and is just like...watching my rotted body do stuff out of my control
everything starts small!!! i also have to work on sustaining whatever i already have i have to keep going
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francis, fran
it's good that you can recognize rot, i rot a lot too but in different ways. i didn't really understand terms like usobo or go as a shorthand for a game... would like to know such things
good luck!!
I basically rot on a daily basis
I realize its a much more common thing now because of growing shorts platforms and consumerism :( It sucks but the first step to fixing it is always recognizing it first!! We're in this together and we'll get out of it someday hopefully💪💪
usabo is this biology competition that I compete in annually! it's a lot of studying and I got really burnt out after this year's season and I think i lost a lot of my study habits afterwards LOL
Go is this asian board game that's strategy-based similar to chess!! It's also called Baduk in Korean and Weiqi in Chinese (I think) its super fun!!!
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dawg you are a gamer on a whole other level
cool asf
biology contest? you are for sure getting into more colleges than me
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