Meeting friends and crying + my brother is home

Date: 30 november 2024 

Yesterday school was cancelled, instead I met up with some friends. We watched "The Whale", a sad movie I guess, but I cried bcs I sat beside this girl that is really nice to me instead. I've never met someone as kind and understanding as her. She hugged my arm and made sure I was comfortable in a way I haven't met a lot of ppl that do. At the end of the movie I hugged her as an excuse for it being "sad". I just really wanted a hug from her. And when I got the hug it felt so good I cried. This is all platonic, she has a bf. When one of my other friends saw me hugging her he said he also wanted a hug, then he went and hugged me. It made me remember, though sometimes it's hard, that guys can like hugging too. A lot of my guy friends aren't very emotional infront of others, and they don't hug as much as I see some girls do. So I never know if they are that kinda guy or not, I also don't want to make them uncomfortable considering I'm bisexual. I don't want it to seem like I'm hitting on them either. Anyway after the movie we went to meet some other friends aswell and play DnD. I left to get home around dinner time, which I ate with my brother who came home yesterday. He'll leave tomorrow.

I played Heroes of the Storm with friends later yesterday. Eventually the clock was 01:00 and we quit. One friend stayed and we played It Takes Two until 03:00 in the morning. The next day I woke up to find out my other friends were going to The Nerds Christmas Market (its called that). So I left home at 12:00 to meet up with them. At the market I bought a health potion that looked sick, I also bought a pepe pin. I got home in time for when I had to leave with my family for a dinner on a boat. We picked up grandma aswell. It was kinda boring but I didn't hate it. Now I'm home and tired, I also haven't studied. Not gonna do it now, it's too late. I'm gonna try to spend the next few days chilling and not doing much, study but that's it. 

- Elliot