I played "He fucked the girl out of me"

All I can say is it was really heavy and painfully intimate and realistic

I spent like 4 hours ever since I woke up just playing around with roms on my phone after figuring out delta was released in the app store

I was mainly just messing around with whatever random ds games I could find like the mcdonald training game thing and some pokemon romhacks I played when i was younger

I ran into he fucked the girl out of me on cdromance bc someone posted it as a homebrew and i was like wow that looks interesting! and started playing it not knowing anything about the game


I played the game and I was stuck with the goopy stickiness and paranoia similar to how I felt after watching lilya 4 ever

ouihjkk...i think the experience felt more intimate and i paid more attention because i got to play it on a hand-held device aka my phone

my phone was warm on my hands, it was cloudy outside, i was wrapped in my blanket, my hair was greasy and i think this combination just made the game feel more real

The part at the end where the dev said he couldn't ask the question to sally hit me the most. I guess it was the whole thing about having strong conflicting feelings about a certain thing. I think something came up from my chest when i read those few lines of text but i couldn't bring myself to want to cry because it just felt like...weird bc all the things that were covered in the game are things I could never relate to. It was just terrib;e to imagine someone going through all of that

In the first and second letter of qiu miaojin's letters from montmartre, there are parts where the narrator is talking about how the world is full of "hurt" and I was reminded of it when i read these parts in the game. 

idk if there was a correct way to react to the game. Like i didnt want to dramaticize what i felt because it the end it was just sympathy more than anything. and i also didnt want to just like...idk leave it there...like it was nothin

udikhjgfjhs idkidkdikdidk....................I leet in marinate in my head a few minutes after I finished the game and then i just went downstairs and had a can of beer w my brother afterwards

ggugh.....................................................