do you still look at these?

sometimes i wonder if you ever check these. if you still think about me. i know i have to do something to stop myself from thinking about you. maybe i keep some of these public so you CAN see them. i'm not sure. i have to do something to get over it all. it's probably not a grand idea to write things with you in my head, or keep those old playlists on my phone or think about you when i see a cute animal video. 

it's weird to think about how many blogs i have are about relationships, all of which have failed due to my own self-sabotage. actually, it's embarrassing. even the blogs i keep private are things i can't say or don't know how to figure out.

love is hard.

i should force myself to stop thinking about you. it's in the past anyway. i don't know why it's so hard. 

regret is apparently a persistent feeling.