november 23. 2024

ate some expired yogurt today but decided not to finish it. i think i made the right choice bc i feel healthy but not sick. i could be sick later i guess but i dont think anything bad will come from it.

i got some xmas gifts td. for my mom and brother and a portion of one of my cousins gifts. i think im getting gifts for my mom brother n cousins but everyone else i will get some alcohol. it is easier and cheaper and my family loves to drink so it will go over well lol.

i hope tmw i have the ability to get some things done i have fallen so far behind. i need to do it its gotten to the point where i feel so buried even tho i have lived in worse i just feel like this is too close. i dont want to be like the hoarders in my family and i try hard not to be so when im all overwhelmed its even worse bc i worry abt falling into this pattern.

my mom offered me a few hundred dollars to pay for either a tefl cert or another course i can choose. i am really so grateful and when she texted me i couldve cried i was so happy idk. i honestly dont know what i should do. the tefl cert would be amazing and let me do so many things and something ive considered before but theres also so many other things that i could love and would improve my life. im leaning towards doing the cert bc it would let me teach english online as well until i decide if il move or not. if i ever do. moving with cats is hard and i dont know if i could leave them i love them so much.