life update (and more vent lol☠️☠️)

I know i'm fucked when the only thing that is making me happy currently is either reading or writing wierd kinky stuff on ao3, i'm so stressed these days i swear to god i'm almost stealing my father's gun so i can shoot my brains out, i've bearly been able to exercise without almost passing out or without my heart exploding because of how tired and stressed (and maybe malnourished too) my body is, that really sucks. I think i might be able to not fail the school year because i did great on my last projects (thanks to my brother).