want

i want to clean my house from top to bottom,

every trinket dusted and teakwood candles lit.

i want to wear long satin dresses with a long accent slit,

and stilletos against freshly shaven long legs.

i want my knees to touch without my thighs following suit,

and i want the skin of a porcelain doll.

i want my skin to cling to my bones, 

in the same way i cling to the idea that one day

i'll be a real girl.