Daily Life #30

19 November 2024 (11:51 PM -  12:09 AM)

    Good evening, gamers. Today, I felt occupied in a different sense than how I've been "occupied" this past week. I've been on, like, a mental descent where my initial reaction to things have been anger, and as a result, I've been very stressed. Yesterday reached a peak of exasperation and I went to bed with a mild headache.

    I guess my brain ran out of steam to power itself and my mental kind of boomed today, like an overworked machine just giving up and letting out one more high-pitched puff of smoke before crashing. So, we are on recovery. In terms of today, this meant that I played more video games with less guilt. That's right: I play video games with a constant baseline level of guilt, but today, I allowed myself to indulge in the experience more. Yippie !

    I write this with an exhausted mind, exhaustion brought by use and thinking -- a different type of exhaustion brought about by stress. I feel exhausted in the right sense. I feel tired in the right way. I feel my sleep is earned this time.

    Anyway, theorycrafting is so fun. It's kind of mentally taxxing but that's just my freaking COGS TURNING MY WHEELS TURNING i'm freaking running the numbers i'm carrying the ones and zeroes shit's makin' more sense than whatever bs people are spewing online about their own BUILDS

I'M A GAMERRRR I KNOW THE SYNERGIES THEY'RE ALIGNING LIKE STARS