Gay shit (happy international men's day)

Date: 19 november 2024 

Before I get to the gay shit I wanna talk abt how I ordered books for 800 kr, and it was only three books. Isn't that an insane price for three books? Idk I only got them bcs I don't usually ask for anything expensive from my parents, and I think my parents like that I'm spending it on books rather than video games. I'm excited for them to arrive, maybe I'll talk abt them more once I've read them, right now I'm reading 1984 by George Orwell, classic.

Abt the gay shit. One of my friends (who is a guy) is doing some interesting things to say the least. We've always made fun of eachother a lot and I guess teased eachother, but now it feels kinda different. At first I didn't think he had any interest in me, in fact I thought he was disgusted by me tbh. He called me fat, short, weak, slow and so on. Even though it felt like he was overdoing it a lot I still wasn't really bothered by it. Another thing he did was show physical strength to sort of mog me ig, he showed how much stronger he was than me when he jerked my arm and dragged me away. He often also restrained my arms so I wouldn't be able to fight back. He started dragging me to sit closer to him a lot. And this weekend he grabbed my legs, sat me down in his lap, and rested his hand on my thigh. He dragged me closer to him even when I was on his lap and close enough as it was. He also grabbed my arm and turned his back so I wouldn't be able to see what he was doing, I felt he put something around it, when he gave it back it was a sort of bracelet. The next day in school I noticed he had shaved, kinda weird to see. He ran after me in the corridor and scared me, then he put his hand on my head and rubbed my hair so it got all messy. That's all there is to it, we've also been planning a sleepover with some other friends, and we're gonna spend new years together.

Also another thing is I watched my friend debate some girl abt the Israel-Palestine war. It was extremely entertaining, my friend has a pretty similar stance as me, whereas the girl was very pro-Palestine even though she claimed she didn't know much in the beginning she still argued a lot. I didn't cs I'm not that educated on it, I know a lot but I'm not an expert and I could easily admit to being wrong abt things.

One last thing is that my cat is sick and it sucks. He's got a fever and infected wounds on him. He is really depressed bcs he can't go outside. It's sad to see. 

- Elliot