november 16. 2024

i fixed the computer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it feels good. i set it up on linux and its running rly well and honestly as fast as my pc. this laptop is old enough that it had windows xp on it when i found it. its better to have a separate machine i can use on the couch and have fun with. ive just finished setup and customization so now im just using it.

i am sad a lot right now for a lot of reasons.

theres a lot i wish i could share w u and even more i wish i could do w u. i feel pretty stuck in my space and in my head. idk how to talk abt or say anything abt my problems and i feel like i should be censoring everything and that i should be saying all im thinking.

i feel right now that this will haunt me forever.

btw i have been broken up with my ex for a bit now, he wanted to cheat on me and told me i was emotionally abusive for not letting him. he got violent and shit when i tried kicking him out and eventually he barricaded me in my apartment. i havent posted but felt like sharing this was important or else it looks like im just ignoring something major and that feels weird.

in the mean time u will find me on the couch, trying to learn this stuff and getting hand pain from typing all day