what is this?

i don't know in which planet am i living. everywhere i look it seems so unreal. even thinking of me as an existing creature seems a lie. who am i even interacting with? are you, really you? do you care enough about me to not call me crazy? do people think im crazy? because everytime i speak i cant help but think this is all a lie. and if it is, whos lie is it? are you lying to me or to them? why? why are you doing this? and if there's no someone else and if no one is lying? then what is this. why do i keep going to sleep. why cant i stay awake like always? who am i sleeping for? for me? who am i leaving when i do it? you? says he, leave me alone, leave me alone. just alone. but dont. lie. when you tell me you are. leaving