im tired [TW SH]

so my mental health has been spiriling all over the place and even the smallest agrument makes me wanna relapse. i dont know how long i've been clean for bc it happens every other week or so.

there isnt any space left on the place i used to cut myself and that also kinda demotivates me so ig thats good. i just kinda wanna cut my whole arm open and hoping i would bleed out but i know im too scared to cut even that deep.

idk if i should take this to shtwt or if this is a cry for help but i just wanted to take my mind off of it for a sec by writing abt it