i dont like other systems // a rant

its a sort of schrodinger situation in which everybody is both faking and not faking simultaneously. I dont care enough to interrogate you for your backstory and medical records and passport or whatever. but a part of me will always be suspicious. 

particularly on the internet of all places. as much as I will defend people when fakeclaimed I myself am a hypocrite. I do actually think it odd that your alter developed 2 days after getting into this new media.

now when somebody says that the main argument in return is always "alters can form in times of stress, this person is probably going through alot of trauma" which I'm not going to try and refute since that's none of my business. but blindly believing whatever people say, especially regarding mental health, is why we have so much misinformation in this day and age. 

tiktok recently has people believing that BPD causes hallucinations. it does not. it very much does not. and if you Are experiencing those chances are you dont have BPD and it is most likely something else. nobody likes hearing about mental illnesses being comorbid. 

I understand why of course; making yourself believe something. feeling as though you found a reason why you act the way you do. only to be told you're wrong, it's like stripping a sense of identity. 

I get it truly. 

but social media in particular is way too excited to try and label everything as mental illness. back to my original topic; while I'm not going to act with hate I am still suspicious of every system I meet. 

though I'm sure its deeper than "internalized something" or whatever the next instagram psychologist is going to try and psychoanalyze from me based off my 2 sentence comment alone. it's almost as if we are multifaceted people capable of complex and at times hypocritical thoughts. 

my experience as a system doesn't feel like it lines up with anyone else. I feel like I'm always excluded one way or another. I dont view my alters as separate people who suddenly need their own entire social media page dedicated to every part of their personality cuz "what if they're uncomfy :(" 

they're just me. I'm me. I'm them. alot of systems I've met these days hate hearing me say that. I dont communicate with anything, simply plural makes me feel more disconnected from myself. I'm just me.

there are actually several alters that post on here. I just dont feel a need to specify or try to use typing quirks or odd emojis. it feels disconnecting, like a roleplay. which is how alot of systems I've met act like. 

a roleplay.

an introject can like their source. but at the end of the day they are not their source. and I dont mean that in a woke "problematic source alters arent bad" way. I mean you seriously need to recognize that You are Not that Source. it becomes unhealthy at a certain point. 

ah look at that.. I've become the social media psychologist~! hypocrisy at its finest.

these are just my early morning thoughts. I wallow and mull until spacehey becomes my diary for whatever I am currently thinking. I appreciate it if you've read this far! I am quite long winded huh.. 

I will leave comments open for now, and would prefer for it to remain respectful. if you have thoughts youd like to share then by all means. but this is my page and I am allowed to curate who is here, dont ruin it for everyone.