Nothing is forever (whether thats good or bad is up to you.)

Nov. 8 TW: sh talk, unhealthy sexual thoughts/feelings

if you follow my blogs you might be asking "hey alix, what problem are you yabbling on about now?" 

and that problem is my scars fading </3 my scars are one of the few things i like about myself (not including my hair i love it sm!!)

But the winter is here, long sleeves are in, and pencil sharpeners are everywhere so..imagine how hard it is rn lol

not even im THAT sad to do anything, i just love the way people stare at my scars and the way they look/feel

is that normal? not sure lmfao 

well i just ate some good ass alfredo, and i might have seconds...yummmm

um why is it so overwhelming to have friends/partners because ik i shouldnt feel like this but GODDD i wanna have days to myself again

i wanna go for hours at a time being alone and sulk about how lonely i am lmfaoo

but yea, and then my friends arent the most sane bunch (sorry love yall!) and i SUCK at comforting so its a lose lose combo :(

eeuuuggghghgh SOMEONE SEDATE ME

the thoughts just wont stop, i cant stop thinking about sex and its not even funny.

i used to always joke about it and it *kinda* helped but ive stopped a few months back and its gotten worse again.

i cant even walk to and from school without getting a feeling like that (yk what i mean) and it makes me feel sick

i just want it to go away and i just want to curl up in a ball and cry

even as i type this i still have that gross feeling and i dont know what to do

anyways thats all

~TOODLESS!!