things are changing

ive been noticing recently that no matter where i go i always have this strong feeling that its just not where i'm supposed to be. ill sit in a room full of people i love and realise some way, somehow, that i just dont belong there anymore.

and so i'll reach out another direction, and it turns out i dont belong there either. in fact maybe less so. my chest feels empty everywhere i go.

im trying to fall in love with new things but not a lot seems to stick, i dont know what to do with myself, i dont know where to put my hands, who to give my heart out to.

im not entirely sure where im supposed to go. i just keep waking up.