november 4

ig im gonna use this as a kind of public diary, kind of like in wet moon, which is one of my favorite graphic novel series'. ill try to write everyday, but this is mostly to try to keep myself accountable in recording events in my life, especially since im in the turbulent and truly abysmal 20s. whoever said it gets better was fucking lying it isn't getting better, and i doubt it magically gets better at 30 like it seems. they never say how it got better for them. 

today i went to a dental clinic to get my teeth cleaned after 5 years of not going to a dentist. somehow no cavities but the scraping part was so painful, it's why i hate the dentists. but my teeth are clean now so that's nice. ive started a new job, which i hope is better than my previous one. also ive been so congested all day, and everything feels dry, it does seem to be the air (i hope). i put a nightstand table together, but i did it wrong so now it's crooked :/ but it wouldnt be me if it wasnt tbh.  sometimes i have trouble distinguising reality and dreams. i dont remember whether certain details and events are real or from dreams. doesnt help my dreams have always been vivid.