YAYAYAYAYA

it is so RAINY here! i absolutely hate rain and i've said this so so so many times in my blog LOLZ. makes me too sad u_u today is an outlier, though, probably because i went to my therapy appointment this morning, because i feel so ENERGIZED!!!! i actually got shit done today without getting overly distracted :3

there's this app i've been using, too, that i only realized the vast utility of recently! it's called finch, and it's a self-care app centered on doing tasks and achieving goals to take care of your bird and stuff. it's so so so good!!! it provides some goal ideas, reflections questions, breathing exercises, and, what i found just today, journeys in which you achieve multiple goals for one purpose! so for example, i wanted to improve my focus, so the focus journey had multiple goals for me to achieve within two weeks and achieving these goals gives you in-game currency that you can spend on your bird. :p it's supposed to check back in two weeks to see how you progressed and stuff. very fun! 

it also has this thing every sunday where you reflect on your week, think about what you did well and what you didn't, and for the things you didn't do well, it provides goal ideas for the upcoming week! this sounds like such an ad LOLZ but it's really lovely! ^_^

and about rdr2........ :( i haven't been able to return to it (although i have been thinking about it all the TIME) because i'm on chapter 6 and things aren't looking too great for the van der linde gang. T_T i kind of already know what happens-ish, only big main plot points but not sure why they happen, so i anticipated a lot of the events but OW!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!! IT HURTS!!!!!!!!!

it's so bad that i get a visceral reaction every time i see a rdr2 post. it's either i'm super happy or extremely sad u_u. i've been getting so many sad rdr2 posts; i think the algorithm is out for my throat!!

there's this account i found that makes modern au rdr2 headcanons and i've been using them like drugs to cope with my current point in game. u_u but i found more of their headcanons and i was mildly upset by them because what do you mean javier is a horrible cheating asshole T_T he is NOT!!! (i think LMAO) he is so very loyal and dedicated and passionate! and they kinda dumbed down arthur and i thought it was kinda silly at first but then i was like :( he's a grown man :(

i've thought of making my own modern au headcanons because i cannot at all deal with the actual events of the game LMAO. i'm so glad i have a save file from chapter 2 so i can interact with the gang, complete the compendium, and explore the map as much as i can.

i feel like all my blog entries, or at least all my blog entries since i bought rdr2, mention rdr2 at least once. when will i be freed T_T