probsies not actually but liek
i was at like
doctor appt right,, like psychiatry and whatnot,,
and the guy just went like
'what you have might kinda sounds like depression'
in my mind,, i thought 2 myself
"HuH what???/"
then after the appt i stumbled upon this blogpost abt how understimulation can look like depression 4 some ppl and i was like
""HUH""
so yah.
am i gonna trust some random post more than a doctor? idk.
but yh. I'm gonna try 2 listen 2 podcasts more for in the background.
A lot of me doing nothing kinda stems from "idk how 2 start, confusion" and "anxious that outcome will not b up 2 what i want it 2 b"
apart from all that hopelessness shit,, it's that
so while i MAY (possibly) be depressed,, I still wanna do more shit which is not lying around and doing n0thing,, and realising that i may b in need of extra stimulation 2 start doin' things (like listening to things in background,, etc.)) helps a lot actually.
Hopefully I'll b able 2 be more.. "in",, yk? w/o hving 2 start medication again,, 'cause that'll b a whole Thing tht i'll hv 2 deal with.
2 b clear,, i'm not professionally diagnosed w anything like mentally,, i just hv appointments 'cause of brain illness.
So yh. I'm mostly fine,, probsies.
Yh. I'm fine,, really. Just been feelin' a lil off,, but hopefully I'll be bale 2 slowly build back into actually...Being,, and existing normally, yk? Not just aimlessly wandering day after day.
ok bye bye that's all 4 now.
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