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hes leaving me on read again. its so aggravating cuz he keeps sending post and starting conversations in the gc with our friends along with the dozens of other ppl and gcs and i know that i am at the bottom of all those messages. i dont wanna bring it up cuz hes just gonna do thing and say that hes "busy and working and not on the phone a lot" and that he is going to "do better" and that will make me feel bad for bringing it up cuz i know all that. and ive been complaining a lot to him already these past months because i miss him and i wanna see and talk to him but hes got better things to do and more important people to see. i dont wanna be his whole life but i wish he cared more about me which is so selfish and bs to say cuz he does everything for me and all i do is complain. but today was the first time he said i love you in weeks and he probably only said it because he felt guilty.