Overstimulated Ramble

The littlest things overstimulate sometimes. It's a pain, because I know what's affecting me, my brain knows, but my mouth can't. Everytime I interact with someone it's feels like I'm in the spot sometimes. It makes me feel kinda fake. So many things annoy me, but some are so petty. I'd feel like a jerk if I relayed it, but truthfully it's just such a hassle. I hate questions, I hate confrontations, I wanna be alone, but I wanna talk. I don't trust anyone, but I wanna see the good in everyone. The weak part of myself feels so inadequate sometimes. I dislike these feelings, I don't like how much they weigh. Leave me alone.