I fantasize about being hospitalized

I'm not saying I want to be hospitalized, I just fantasize about it. I hate being there, it would be even worse to be stuck ill in a bed all day as if that's not my life already. But, oh lord, do I fantasize about it a lot. Being stuck on a hospital bed with an IV pole while getting pampered and pitied by doing the bare minimum. The thought of me being in a vulnerable position and having him do anything he wanted with me makes my head dizzy in a satisfying way. I try my best to avoid having to go visit hospitals or clinics, but it doesn't stop me from fantasizing about it...