I'm not saying I want to be hospitalized, I just fantasize about it. I hate being there, it would be even worse to be stuck ill in a bed all day as if that's not my life already. But, oh lord, do I fantasize about it a lot. Being stuck on a hospital bed with an IV pole while getting pampered and pitied by doing the bare minimum. The thought of me being in a vulnerable position and having him do a... » Continue Reading
WHY MUST MY EMOTIONS BE SO HARD?!! Holy hell do I really want help so bad, I want to treat my illness but I love being sick so bad. I enjoy being mentally and physically weak. I'm not masochistic either, I want to talk to a professional about my ill but I don't want to be diagnosed with something official I want to be like this all the time. I want to be tired and feel unlovable all the time. ERG... » Continue Reading
Hi! I would love it if anyone could help identify Aseo's haircut or find a reference. If you do know/find one, please send it to me!! By the way, I need the references to be based off fems (because I'm a closeted trans with homophobic parents!) Reference from the manga: » Continue Reading