entry 1/11/2024: im just jealous

these fucking popular boys in my class who make fun of me seem so fun to play with. and i know for sure i cant play with them cus they call me names and mock me so much. im so pissed, i used to be friends with one of them until they drove me out. im so pissed, im so pissed, im so pissy about this. i have my own friends, but they seem so fun, and im so pissed. they're rehearsing as a band and one of them is actually pretty good at playing drums. im so pissed, i wish i could be their yoko ono. i wish the one that i was friends with is john lennon, oh come on. oh, come on. come on, why cant i? im not that weird, i swear come on. im not that creepy, even if my friends and i sit in the back of the class. i mean, im sorry for whatever i've ever done to you. for whatever mishap i have done, to make you feel so burdened to spit on my face like so. and im sorry, i swear. im sorry. really. im sorry for being a bother. or whatever. aww, man.