Fuck everybody but you

I never really wanted to fall in love. Love is a fickle thing, it requires you to shed your armour and pull down the walls you built around your heart. I hated the concept of it, but I am a hypocrite deep down. I love love. Love to me is when you let the person in through a bond that cuts deeper than your slitted wrists. It was a terrible thing that I caught feelings for you. You are my best friend, the one person I never wanted to let go. I don't believe in love, no, but you make me want to sink into this heart-shaped hole you've carved inside me unknowingly. I can't have you, I know, but I wonder if I was born a man and not a woman, would you have desired me too? You fill every inch of my thoughts, created a space in my head and I couldn't listen to a song without thinking of you.

If I could, I would grab your shoulders and yell at your face, begging you to be with me. Fuck everybody but you. You are the steady and most consistent thing in my life. I will always want you.