Daydreaming, recently

I know I probably won't b able 2 land a perfect job,,

because really,, I don't think there is such thing as a 100% perfect job.

If there was,, my luck would probably not allow me to have it.

But sometimes I like daydreaming about having certain jobs in the future.

Different career paths I think I'd like to get into.

Just to ease my mind off of things. 

I like to daydream that one day, I too, will be able to live a somewhat normal life. That I too, will be able to work a nice job,, and have a nice house. And have all my nice little things neatly put in nice little places. 

And so,, the first job I've been thinkin' on,, which I think I'd be really good at:

Inventory Manager,, 

or something like that.

 I don't know, really. 

An office clerk? yh. Something like that.

Thing is,, leave me with piles and piles of shit to organise into various groups and compartments ,,dates to be scheduled and boxes to be labelled and sorted and identified,, and that is something I'd probably be able to do.

Of course ,, it'll take effort,, I'm not saying it's easy. Just that I think I'd really really enjoy doing something like that.

Learning the system would be difficult,, and I'd have to have at least some basic knowledge of the things I'm handling,, but I think I'd really like learning those things.

For example ,, I wouldn't work as an inventory manager at a car company. Nice pay, probably,, but I don't know shit about car parts. I'm gonna get in trouble for sending out a wrong type of air filter or light or something and eventually get fired.

Something to do with bugs

preferably,, something similar to before. being the one storing specimens ,, perhaps,, idk. But yeah. It's something I'm interested in.

Translator // 翻訳人

It's something I've really wanted to do,, but as of now I'm not fluent enough in any languages to do that. 

English Proofreader//Editor,, maybe I'd be able 2 do.

But yeah. Writing,, reading,, editing sites and articles,, just seems very nice and interesting to me.

As of now, I'm only fluent in my native language, Malay, and in English ,, but I want to learn more and also become fluent in other languages, too !!

Anyway, yeah. It's something that I've wanted/aspired to do since I was young,, maybe first time actually seriously when I was 8 or 9 or so.

Maid Cafe,, Costuming,, Children's Entertainment 

I don't think I'm good at acting, or that I have the looks for it. But I think for me, it'd be a job I'd enjoy.

To just dress up,, and pretend to be someone you're not,, and maybe- just maybe you'll make some people happy that day.

Whether it be as a waiter in a maid cafe, wearing cat ears and stirring up various にゃ puns,, on a stage, as a goofy character in a local Educational TV programme- or maybe as a literal clown. A scare actor or something of the sorts.

I would be more interested in preforming arts and such,, but I have lack of experience and on top of that,, I want to be able to work a job with stable and consistent pay.

If I was better at it,, probably,, as I am now, probably not.

Anyways, yh. That's about it.

There are probably a LOT more opportunities than I think there are,, and I'll sure I'll be able to at least get...something...that I actually enjoy doing. yk?

I really really really want to do something I'm actually interested in,, not just something I'm doing just because I have to. 

I think I understand the importance of give and take,, of prioritising having enough money to feed and house myself and put in my savings,, but the thought of having to do something I am completely uninterested in is tortuous,, and genuinely has made me cry on multiple occasions.

I may not be as passionate about things as some other people are ,, and I admire- at times, envy- that ability to be so passionate about something,, but I know that even if I'm weak there , I have strengths in other places. So if I fight the right battles,, it may not hurt as bad. 

But,, yeah,, for now that's it.

It's like...3am rn. Sooooo, bye bye!! :3 

Have a lovely day, or night,, whatever time is is wherever you're at!