Its crashing yikes

Hey gng I'm back again :p

Idk I've been overthinking alot recently I just feel like I have so many problems and don't know how to deal with them but like I don't wanna go into therapy again they kicked my ass put last time because I couldn't explain what was bothering me the way they wanted me to so they just gave me a sh booklet and took me off the list #epic 

Anyways I've been struggling and I admit that openly but could I explain in what ways? Not at all, I suck at explaining I'm just a very flawed person and I know that things started getting better and now they're all crashing down again I feel myself turning back into the girl who wouldn't leave her bed or talk to anyone and I dont wanna fall down that path again I'm nearly a full year clean which I'm real happy about but if it keeps spiralling down I'm worried I'll end up falling slowly but surely into old habits and that scares me 

Goodnight gng imma sleep before I fall into thought land again