I mourn

I see my words in hers, and I can tell she carries on my essence. I am not surprised, because she looked up to me for so long, but it is hard to watch.

I went to Jason's Deli recently, and much has changed. They don't have my black forest ham, and the ham they did put was far too much. It did not taste as good as back then.

I have had so many moments where my mind gets flung back in time, and the world spins around me. The life I could have had exists, I am just not living it. 

I am trapped in a shell of platinum and gold, and all I can do is mourn.