Oddities blog

The worst thing that I’ve been confronted with recently is that life will only get worse way before it’s better.

As of right now I am a young senior and life is more stress full than it has ever been before, with me practicing honing my musicianship and balancing my personal relationships on top of everything else, it’s truly a challenge.

Im not truly happy in my relationship. The arguments have been more strenuous then ever and recently she hit me. I did push back a little bit of course but no slaps or punches. I know I’m a man, or at least growing into one. But admittedly I get nervous sometimes. When she’s around me and she’s upset I get a little nervous. When she is upset and says oh I’m gonna hit you I take it more seriously, I have my guard up more. I don’t like that feeling. 

I don’t want to talk about it in depth right now because it’s late at the time of me typing this (11:08 est) but it’s put a strain on me. Everything is harder and I want to be free of it all. But I know a lot of my dreams will stay dreams. 

I have LOT more disappointments coming in life, which is terrible but unavoidable, though I know I’ll be able to hold onto myself. But even now I know I’m changing. I’m forgetting who I am. I’ll be fine though. I think.

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