do they even care ?

i cant help but wonder why they never text me

anytime they text me

its always just

"asher, how do we do number four on the math?" 

or

"asher did you get the answer for #9 last night"

but why is it never texting me just to text me ? am i that worthless that nobody has anything to talk to me about besides just homework answers ? why is it always homework this, homework that, and never "how was your day, asher?" or "are you doing ok, asher?". 

because im not doing okay i feel pathetic and useless and im such a pushover and i talk too much and i try too hard and i hate myself and im not even worthy of anybodys love let alone my girlfriend's 

and oh god why am i so skinny why am i just skin and fcking bones. nobody likes that. i look weird. i talk weird. im so fcking weird. i will never be worth anything. i will die a meaningless and sad death