breakup

just wanted to make a quick entry as an update to my last post and say that, as funny as it sounds, i indeed broke up with my partner. i was head over heels for him and it made me fully ignore how much he mistreated me and made me feel miserable about myself. i haven`t felt as shitty as i did in a while and because of that i didn`t feel sad about our seperation. having someone by my side was pleasant, but i`ve come to a conclusion that maybe i`m just not the type who can maintain a relationship. not at the moment, at least. i guess i just value myself over the idea of having a romantic partner and i`m comfortable by myself. so yeah, kinda don`t care, maybe a bit angry about the way i let him treat me. wish the terrible flashbacks of bad things that he did to me would stop haunting me and ruining my day, but i guess it takes time.