am 10-17-2024

the hotel is nice, but there could be like a better or thicker comforter on the bed and maybe more pillows. also they did this thing where when you walk in, you have to put a room key on this holder to activate the room power? which ive never seen before so was super confusing when i checked in.

we had deep dish last night and everyone loved it.

last night i had another stomach attack like i had at my parents in july. ill spare the details but its extremely uncomfortable and concerning when im alone to have this happen. it feels like sudden onset food poisoning and im completely overwhelmed with pain, dread and a cold sweat and it lasts about 15 minutes. i feel every time like im going to pass out with tunnel vision. the only thing i can find online is IBS, chrons, or some version of vasovagal syncope. its scary when it happens because the pain is so intense i feel like i need someone there with me or worry i cant call for help. i remember when it happened at my parents i was texting my dad 'i'm in trouble, i need help. im very ill." at like 2am which is when this has happened all 3x so far. this time i was able to rationalize to myself that it doesnt last and is only temporary and it helped a little. 

not sure what to do about it. 

today im going to dress up more. time to shower and get breakfast ♡