embarassed

you're such a big fat liar

but you're not

of course you don't like me

of course! of course

i just laugh too loud for real

you just say weird mean stuff to me for real

you just look at me like a lost puppy for fun

you think I'm fucking weird

you're surprised i didn't realize i liked you earlier

I'm so fucking angry at myself

embarrassed

I'm always wrong

always wrong

why am i on raya? who let me on there?

I'm not even cute enough for a cute guy

i just attract shit but not even shit like him like stupid shit

good

I'm such a fucking idiot i can't believe i did that

I'm unlovable clearly

don't know what i was thinking

i should remember that I'm worth nothing more than friends

barely friends

I'm the girl they shelf for when the hangout is too dismal

i don't feel like a first choice

i always feel intrusive

i suck

no wonder i can't even get this right

i wish i took so much weed i'd pass out right here

but instead I'm awake

thinking about you.

fuck off brain

you're my biggest enemy