Been struggling

I've been struggling with what I'm gonna do, like ik I should break up with her and I've just been tryina figure out how I would but like I don't wanna break her heart. But at the same time she broke mine. Pretty much the night before last night I didn't wanna fuck and I tried to tell her I didn't want to and she basically said "I don't want you to touch me anymore" and basically said she'd cheat on me. Ive been trying to make it work because I love her but I can't keep doing this. If another argument happens I ain't staying, like I just wanted it to work but she's been treating me poor. She's been saying like "you're a terrible actor, you're not shit, I'm better than you, don't try at work, I don't want to hear about your accomplishments, stick to what you do, etc" mind you we both work at the same haunt. I wanted to work there to work with my gf not be better than her. Last year it wasn't even this bad Ik I write a lot about this shit but I fr don't know what to do. 

Like we were supposed to go see the new terrifier 3 on Tuesday and like I was supposed to get her a new tattoo for our anniversary. It's just been taking a toll on my mental health like it's just gotten bad. She's been more aggressive and aggravated easily and I'm just losing any hope 🫤

Like I just wanna cry to my mom, I don't even usually talk like this but I just wish I could cry in someone's arms. But I'm a guy, I shouldn't be thinking that way, I just wish shit would get better. I seriously wish I could try at work because I love what we do. But she wants me on tech or in a zone that doesn't show us barely. But ik probably not gonna write as much Incase she takes my phone, I already got enough shit happening